Bleeding

I think this blog is going to be a short one.  I am going to write about what is going on for myself and I will probably not share it with anyone else.  On Thursday I started to bleed.  At first just a little, but then it got heavier, very similar to a period.  I called my dr. and they advised me to go to the ER.  I went to the ER, they took blood work and did an u/s.  Everything was measuring right, but there was no heartbeat.  However, you can't always see a heartbeat at 6 weeks, so they told me I need to come back to have more blood drawn and see if my numbers are increasing or decreasing.  Everything is complicated by the fact we are leaving on Monday to visit family in Utah.  I will go to the hospital tmw to have the blood drawn.  I have not stopped bleeding and I have some cramps.  I have not really had any pg symptoms since I found out I was pregnant, so I do not have a lot of hope for this pg. I will see my dr when we get back from Utah. If I have in fact m/c, like I feel I am, then they will just check my numbers again and do another u/s to make sure everything is gone.  I really hope I can enjoy seeing my family next week.  I know it will distract me from what is going on, but I am still so sad that we will not get our Christmas baby.  I really think this baby heartbeat never started beating, and so I assume that there was a reason for this.  But it is not fun to go through and is still a loss we have to suffer through even though not many (if anyone really) will know about it.

BFP!!!!

Looks like baby #4 is on the way. We are expecting our new little bundle of joy right after Christmas! I am excited and a little bit nervous.  It hard to think about going back to that baby stage with 3 other kids already, but I know we can do it.  Hoping for an easy pregnancy.  So far no morning sickness, do I dare wish that will continue.